During a recent training day I took part in an exercise in being curious and non-judgemental. Working in pairs we were given a pouch with two unknown objects in. We were then instructed to choose one and while it was still in the pouch describe it and say how we felt about it before seeing what it was.
My colleague went first. She spent some time describing something that felt very natural. As she spoke I was getting excited about my turn, looking forward to discovering what mine might be. I imagined myself enjoying the tactile experience and challenging myself to identify it from only touch. When she took hers out of the pouch it was a beautiful dried poppy seed head, that rattled gently when shook. My expectations rose as to what might be in store for me.
Mindfulness means being with things as they are
However, when I put my hand in the bag I immediately felt deflated and disappointed. I could see why my colleague had chosen the poppy. Mine was boring. It was cold and hard and I knew immediately it was a polished stone. I felt denied the opportunity to be curious, to enjoy the tactile sensations of exploring an object with my hands. Irritated and bored by it I kept picking it up and dropping it in the pouch repeatedly.
Remembering something I’d learned in mindfulness, I realised I’d wanted the stone to be something it wasn’t…. the poppy. Instead of being curious and non-judgemental, I’d created expectations around what would be in the pouch and my experience of it. So I’d been disappointed and annoyed when these weren’t met.
Once I recognized this I accepted the pebble as it was. With this shift in thinking came a new found interest as I allowed myself to be open to whatever the pebble had to offer. I now noticed how it fit in the palm of my hand; its temperature, smoothness, size and irregularity of shape. When I took the pebble out of the pouch it was copper coloured with gold flecks. I knew that if I’d seen it, I’d have loved it instantly.
Dealing with disappointment
I’d thought myself open minded. Yet I’d experienced deep disappointment when the object in the pouch didn’t live up to the expectations I’d created of it. It wasn’t the pebbles fault, it was what it was. The fact that I’d have loved it on sight, illustrates how my opinion of it was coloured by comparison and expectations.
Let the tale of the pebble and the poppy serve as a reminder to you. When you stop wanting situations and people to be something else, you can accept them for what they are. The alternative leads to disappointment, and potentially the loss of enjoyment in a moment, day or person.
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